Sunday, November 16, 2008

Road Block

Friday had the be one of the worst days of my life.

I was extremely happy. I had just had a great check-up with the doctor on Tuesday. I am losing weight great. 35 lbs at that time. I thought nothing could be better.

I was right. I got the shock of my life at 2:15pm. I was layed-off from what I thought was the best job I have ever had. Needless to say happiness comes to an end very quickly.

Since the first time since my weight loss surgery I was so depressed that all I wanted to do was eat something I knew I couldn't have. Well as most of you may suspect, I couldn't. This just added to my depression.

I want to thank all my friends who have stepped up and given me words of encouragement. I know that God has a plan for everyone. When one door closes another one opens. I have to believe that everything happens for a reason.

Thank God, my depression is over. It only lasted for a few days. I spent the day looking at antiques with a very dear friend. It was very therapeutic.

I will keep my chin up and put my nose to the grind stone until I find something else. I know that there is something out there for me.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Trial and Error

It's been 5 weeks since surgery and I have lost 30lbs. I feel like a guinea pig sometimes when it comes to eating. I am trying new foods everyday. Some don't agree with me some do. It is all a big science experiment. The food your stomach digest easily might not necessarily digest well in the small intestine. I found this to be true with Sushi. I was extremely happy that I was able to eat 4 small pieces. I chewed very slowly and it tasted wonderful. But, within a couple of hours I was in the bathroom dumping. No stomach cramps or pain that would have come before with a bad case of diarrhea. It was just there. It didn't last long. I am sure it will be back as I experiment with what I can eat and what I can't.

I have found a new snack. Peanut butter. I ate a small peanut butter and honey sandwich on wheat bread for lunch today. I chewed very slowly and had no problems. I now know a few things I can tolerate and some I should wait awhile before I try them again. I look forward to this new experience. After all, weight loss surgery was one of the best decisions I have every made. I entend to make the most of this new life.